I am convinced I am not aware of the upcoming examinations.
I have yet to begin my preparation for anything in relation to that, and I'm beginning to slip back into the state I was in. Or maybe, slip further in, 'cause I think, I haven't actually climbed any further up.

All these stuffs are not representations of my performance to date. I think everything has been fluctuating rapidly, and I am so sick of trying to try, because I cannot bring myself to do it.
I think this has become subconscious and habitual. It's either difficult to or impossible to rid of.

This doesn't make any sense, bye.